Well it's 11:47, i cannot sleep, i have waves of emotions rushing over me, i feel that i am ok one minute and then the next i break down into tears again. Its painful, but for the best, at least for now anyway. I love you so much Su, i know you know that, i'm really sorry about everything that has happened, i understand fully what you have done and why you did it. I don't want to make things more arkward for you but i still love you immensely and can't bear the though of not being with you atm. I hope things are better when morning comes. This isn't a cry for help, more of a way of trying to come to terms with what has happened.

I hope things ease out for you Su, i hope things ease out between us.

Love you always xxx